where does all the time go? recently i've been reading lots of book. lots and lots. i really like reading because it helps me escape from the basic reality, and into the story. like i'm there, watching, listening, actually being part of the story. so school is a drag. i'm supposed to be doing my Capstone project, but i don't know what i should be doing. i'm confused. larson isn't even here anyways. what a dumb cunt for having a baby when i finally decide to take this course. so i really hope i can go to CCRI in january. i need to see some more civilized older mature people before i kill myself in this little stupid fucking high school of middletown's. this place is so whack, you wouldn't even believe it. seniors in this class are so fucking tiny, its just weird. i really wish i could've graduated last year. with all my friends, people i actually feel comfortable with. there are a lot of things i miss right now, in this certain point of my life. some of them obvious, others, not so obvious. i don't even know when this class ends. its making me mad though. i really need a cigarette, my nerves are to high. atleast i get to drive to and fro ALP. thats straight. i have time to smoke ciggys inbetween. i can't, however, access my LJ over at ALP. so that kinda sucks. and no matter how many times i try to fix my fucking computer, it doesn't work. so now i can't fucking put songs on my I-Pod, or do anything else for that matter. i really miss having friends, or atleast more people to hang out with. i always feel i screw it up though, which i probably do. hopefully i'll end up running into some familiar faces pretty soon here. i can't wait to work this weekend. hehe. my friend will be back in town so we can chill at work. halieuaih. sp? i dunno. i suck at spelling. did i mention i'm reading a lot of books now? its quite weird, because about 2/3 years ago, i HATED reading, or anthing that had to do with using my head. but now i can't stop reading. i think its because it helps me focus on other things, besides whats really important, so i can kinda just slack, relax, and read a really good fucking book. SKip has to pay almost $4,000 for her car accident she got into. and if she doesn't pay that fee, like in a month, then her mom has to claim bank ruptcy. how fucked up is that? i wish i could give her money, then again, i'd have no money to give her because i barely saved a penny this summer, although i was good with budgeting, and making my money last throughout the entire week. bryan depended on me in the summertime, which was fine. i was rolling in dough, and besides i rely on him in the winter. well i'm off. i'm getting a little sketched.
if anyone wants to hang out or chill, please gimme a call, i talked to christine pike on my "surprise half birthday" and she never called me back :(. oh well. peacer. -becha*